Best of All Angst

These song lyrics were composed by the author in 1990 and represented a feeling of anxiety I often felt whilst living as a teenager in the 1970s.

In those days a common expression was that your childhood and teenage years were the best of your life but if there were any self doubts this sentiment could easily have a negative effect. As written below if this is the best, forget the rest.

Too many young people took a radical approach some even choosing suicide or maybe withdrawal from society or they decided to self harm in the downtime when their peers were not administering this themselves.

I knew of no outlets to discuss these issues, there were no help groups, no targeted TV programming nor any internet forums because foolishly no-one thought of starting up an internet so a young person often felt very alone and vunerable.

The messages received were unhelpful. Boys were told to stand up to their issues and fight back 'like a man' even if they didn't have the ability or attitude to do this. Girls who felt unliked or drab would be told to 'make themselves attractive' to alter their happiness, ergo all a girl needed was a short skirt and pretty face to succeed in the world. As if having a pretty face was merely a life choice.

In composing this song I attempted to recreate and sympathise with these awkward growing years.

The unedited original lyrics are reproduced below and appear somewhat short of some musical accompaniment. On the simple basis is that it isn't there. Perhaps you can assist? You don't have to be a teenager to participate.

Author: Vince Poynter
Version 5.005 14 Oct 2017



Best

By Vince

Teenage suicide anthem, written in 1990


Vince as a teenager laying out in a back garden by a waste bin

They say that at my age that fantasies are real,
There's no evil in the hating, no feeling in the kill.
They say there is no time that's better in my life.
No malice in the thinking nor sharpness in the knife.

They say that those around me are playing just for fun.
That there's no real tomorrow, no bullets in the gun.
They say I've got it good and life is just a scream,
And all I have to do is just play around and dream.

But I don't see things this way ...

If this is the best, forget the rest.
If this is it all, don't want no more.
If this is the best, forget the rest.
I just don't see any point.
If this is the most life has to give,
If this is the way you have to live.
If this is the best, forget the rest.
I just can't take any more.
The questions that I pose them are always passed straight by.
I ask them if their childhood was also fed by lies.
They say they had it good and happiness was there.
And tell me I'm to live it out without a single care.

But I can't seem to manage ...

If this is the best, forget the rest.
If this is it all, don't want no more.
If this is the best, forget the rest.
I just don't see any point.
If this is the most life has to give,
If this is the way you have to live.
If this is the best, forget the rest.
I just can't take any more.
So I'm left with just one choice. To chance it will improve.
To risk that they are wrong. That I will make it through.
The alternative is radical and frankly I'm not keen.
It must be worse than living in this place with what I've seen.

But I am still not convinced ...

If this is the best, forget the rest.
If this is it all, don't want no more.
If this is the best, forget the rest.
I just don't see any point.
If this is the most life has to give,
If this is the way you have to live.
If this is the best, forget the rest.
I just can't take any more.

If this is the most life wants to show.
If this is the case I want to know.
If this is the time to top it all.
I'm heading for a fall.
If this is the icing on the cake.
If this is all there is to take.
If this is the best, forget the rest.
I just won't take any more.

If this is the best ... forget the rest.

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Author: Vince Poynter
Version 5.005 14 Oct 2017
Lyrics written in 1990
First Published : Version 1.00 in Oct 2003
The image depicts the author showing angst in 1977 and was added in Version 5.005 14 Oct 2017